The air is fresh here like Oakland’s isn’t, it makes you
feel like this urban landscape is temporary, that one strong gust of
Scandanavian air would lay waste to the apartment towers and roadways, leave
only seascape. Seeing so many children makes me more sure I don’t want any.
Weirdos stand out here like tits in a photo, and by weirdos I mean goths or punks or poor people not wearing beautiful, creaseless clothing. The children
look like air-brushed dolls, with wide-spaced eyes and candy-corn lips, I want
to run my fingers across their cheeks, I don’t. Erica tells me they go to
Malasia or Thailand or the Mediterrranian to get a tan, that's why so many of them are butterscotch brown, so golden they match their hair. But they don’t wear sunscreen so all the old,
middle-aged Swedes have skin like crumpled butcher paper. They love their
sweets and I eat coco-balls every day I am here. They have bins and bins of candy. Everyone here settles down,
makes a family, buys a home, gets good at making meat lasagna. They
feel quiet and demure, and I am bored. I am not running away. I am running to
Berlin.